withdrawal is painful.

but i must get there.

t be no longer controlled by a paper-bound tobacco filled entity.

thanks to everyone : jasmin, ben, sean, kit, donkoh, jonchan, colin, taps for celebrating my birthday w me, all e people who messaged/called, got presents.

but it was crazy. see-sawing emotion. i couldn't get high. withdrawal was clouding my senses. so that spoilt my night. not only that, small boys w childish fixations on a once-temporary love can only spell disaster.

friends that seem so far away. who do i really know? but nevertheless, who am i t complain?

a bed that isn't mine, a roof that isn't home. i long t be there. away from the familiar. so i can escape and re-discover.

give me time.

don't be shocked because o what you saw me do. somehow you knew there was more than meets the eye, more. probably, you were shocked because it was your worst fears about me, come true.

happy birthday to me.